a list of life altering things i had no way/ would have no way of preparing for.

it's raining in philadelphia today.

and i'm tired. i am so very tired and i can hardly keep my eyes open to write. i am so tired, i am convinced something is wrong with me. and low and behold webmd.com has confirmed what i feared may be trued, i have cancer. the only return i got when searching "extreme fatigue" was cancer. so, it must be true, i must have cancer, cause i know internet doctors would not lie to me. the internets do not lie. right?

i mean what if i had cancer? i think, i don't have cancer but i wonder sometimes what i would do with a diagnoses like that in real life. i think parts of me feels i'm exempt from certain things in life, and unfortunately cancer is one of those things, and i say unfortunately because, i honestly do not know what i would do if i where told that i had it. not that you can prepare for that kind of thing but i like to have a general idea of what i may do and i can honestly say, i have no clue.

i guess i have reached the conclusion there are certain life altering events i cannot personally prepare /or wasn't personally prepared for ( and when i say prepare/ prepared, i mean emotionally and in some rare instances physically.) The following is a list of those events:

• being told you have cancer
• being told you have any fatal illness
• being proposed to
• being in a car accident
• the death of a close friend
• meeting someone famous
• inlaws
• the death of princess Diana
• coming into large sums of money
• winning any type of sweepstakes
• witnessing someones death
• visiting a new and far away place
• your wedding day
• passing out in a theme park
• becoming famous
• first time sex
• getting a tattoo
• food poisoning
  
• influencing young people
• first time drinking
• love